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| Penny April 13, 2001 - January 23, 2012 |
I thought last night was going to be the saddest night of my life but I found out today that knowing she is gone hurts even more. Knowing that my puppy will not be there when I get home is the hardest thing ever. She has been such a huge part of my life for the past ten years, I don't know what it is going to be like without her. She won't be there to bark when the UPS guy comes to the door (I'm sure he will be happy about that), she won't wake up the whole house when my brother comes in at two in the morning, she won't howl when she hears police sirens, she won't stick her wet nose in my face when I'm trying to sleep, she just won't be there.
I know that Penny is in a better place. From what my parents told me, she was really hurting. I mean, they told me she wasn't even begging for food anymore. That is when I knew it was really bad. I wish there had been a way for me to get there in time to say goodbye but I wouldn't have wanted her to suffer any longer. My parents took care of her and she left this world knowing she was very loved (at least, I like to think so.)
I hope to one day get another puppy, maybe one that looks just like Penny, but right now it hurts so much, I can't imagine going through this again. I know she had a good life and that it was her time but it doesn't make it hurt less.
Thanks for all the support through Twitter and messages. It helps knowing I'm not alone and that others have gone through this same thing (though I don't wish it on anyone!) I know this is a detour from my regular postings but I just wanted to share.
I am so sorry about your loss. The positive thing is that she isn't suffering anymore! I'm sure she knew that you loved her dearly. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. There's not really much I can say to help you out during this horribly sad time. But just know our thought are with you.
ReplyDeleteI had to go through something very similar, except I was there to be told my dog had one day left and...yeah. I can't imagine what it would've been without that. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry Katie! I had the same thing happen when I was 16 - my parents had to put my dog down when I was away, and I just felt horrible about not being there to say goodbye, but it's important to remember all the good times you've had with instead of focusing on how it ended. Just keep busy, distract yourself with a book that lets you really cry your heart out, and it does get easier..:)
ReplyDeleteSo sad! Losing a dog feels like losing a family member.
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ReplyDeleteKatie- I'm so sorry. I know how hard this is. I told you I recently had to put my puppy of 12 years down. I still think about him. I was there when they did it and that haunts me even more. But I do believe you pup is in a better place running around happy and not sick anymore. Maybe your Penny will hang out with my Lucky. Hang in there.
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Pets have a part of our heart that not even family can fill. Think of the good home you'll give a new puppy, just like you gave Penny. That will make her happy that you'll share your love.
ReplyDeleteIn sorry Katie. I know what you're going through. Some people think that our pets are just pets, but true pet owners know that our pets are family. Always remember the good times = ) *hugs*
ReplyDeleteMaryAnn
Chapter by Chapter
I'm so sorry! I know how losing a dog feels. I lost the dog I grew up with since I was born when I was 9. And the dogs I have now are getting pretty old so I'm probably going to lose them soon as well. It's hard going through this. Hang in there Katie! *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you're going through this, and that you weren't home at the time. I'm glad for her sake that she isn't suffering anymore, but I know it's tough. (We lost our 15 year old family dog last November, and he is still greatly missed.)
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So sorry to hear of your loss :(
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear that. I might not completely understand the pain you're going there, but it is the pain of a losing someone so I am very sorry for the loss. Be strong and just remember the good times :)
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I am really sorry about penny. It's hard to lose a pet but she was lived and had a good life. That's the best you can do. I am sure she knew she was loved. Hugs
ReplyDeleteShe's not hurting anymore and that's all that matters. I'm a huge animal lover so I love seeing animals happy and taken care of. And I'm sure penny was :)
ReplyDelete*hugs* so sorry hun :( Losing a pet is so hard.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss *hugs* Losing a pet is so heartbreaking, but at least she is not suffering anymore
ReplyDelete:( *hugs* I went through the same thing, my dog was sick and I wasn't with her when she was put down, It's hard, even brings me to tears thinking about it when it was years ago, but you have all those great memories to stick with you. Even though you weren't there she knew how much you loved her.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of your loss! I'm positive she knew you loved her. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry about your loss. It can be devastating and you will get over it in time. I still miss my furbabies from the past.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. Losing a pet really is losing a member of the family, it's so hard. I still cry sometimes when I think of my childhood cat, who I had to have put to sleep ten years ago. You'll never forget Penny but I hope that you're able to find some comfort in knowing how much better you made her life and vice versa.
ReplyDelete:( My puppy Jake's birthday is coming up in 2 days and I'm already feeling the dread. I lost him 3 summers ago when he was 14. It's really the worst when you've known them for most of your life and they are your best friend. RIP Penny
ReplyDeleteAwww!!! I'm sorry! *HUGS*
ReplyDeleteOh no! I'm so sorry, Katie. Losing a pet is like losing part of yourself. *sends positive vibes* Let me know if you need to vent/talk!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Katie!! It's so hard to loose a pet that's been such a huge part of your life! When the dog we had since I was 7 died 5 years ago I couldn't even talk about it without crying, I still get sad everytime I think about it. At least there's some comfort in knowing she's not suffering anymore, but it's still really hard.
ReplyDeleteHang in there! *hugs*
I'm so sorry for your loss. We just had something similar to this happen to us last week. Our little Shih Tzu mix had cancer and the tumors moved to her spinal column and she couldn't walk anymore. It hurts like a son of a gun and we miss her tons(so does our extremely depressed Cocker Spaniel). We got her cremated and we get her ashes back tomorrow so she too can sit on the mantle in the living room and "watch" tv with us.
ReplyDeleteI'm so, so sorry Katie. My dog Max had to be put to sleep whilst I was at uni, and I couldn't come home to see him so I know exactly what you're going through. I hope one day you can think of Penny and feel only happiness at your memories of her, and not sadness that she's gone.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs for you, hun! (Told you people would understand you blogging about this!)
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So sorry! It's so hard losing pets that are basically a family member. Big (((hugs))) to you. I hope one day you can get a dog that you can make new memories with.
ReplyDeleteWow, I am sorry about what happened to your dog. I can't imagine what life would be like when my laboradoddle dies. Hopefully you find another dog when the time is right.
ReplyDeletei'm so sorry2 hear /sad face
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry sweetie. (((((HUGS)))))) I've been there, I know. Penny was so lucky to be loved by you and your family!
ReplyDeleteIt's absolutely devastating to lose a pet. I've been through it too many times now and know the pain you are feeling. I know it's a small consolation but the Rainbow Bridge poem has always comforted me. I hope it helps you a little bit, too.
ReplyDeleteSo, so sorry! I know how hard it is to lose your childhood pet. Why must they have such short lives? No one should ever have to outlive their childhood pet.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about the loss of your dog. It is very hard to take I know. I cried and cried when we had to put our dog down. But we do have to think they are better off and not in pain anymore
ReplyDeleteYou're in my thoughts, gal! I've absolutely been there before, and it's incredibly hard. You know we'll all be around to help cheer you up as much as we can. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your loss. Our pets are family members, and losing them hurts deeply. It sounds like Penny had a wonderful life, filled with love and treats. From what you're saying, it's clear she was a happy dog, and she brought happiness to everyone around her. You'll remember and love her forever.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss .. Losing a pet is awful when you're really attached to them !! I can't imagine how I'd react if my dog died !
ReplyDeleteLots of hugs <3
So sorry to hear about your beloved pet. I understand what you are going through, I had to put mine down a few months ago. Hang in there, your heart will mend. But, your memories will stay with you and make you smile often! *hugs*
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I really am so sorry to read this hun, our pets are our family and it hurts so much when they are no longer with us, it is so hard to think of home without them around. Sending you a big huge hug x
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry *hugs* I understand how you feel. My dog died when I was 16.
ReplyDeleteKatie, I'm so sorry to hear about Penny. She was a beautiful dog.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Katie! *hug*
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